Day 13- Write a letter telling someone something you could never tell them.

***This was very hard to write*** I'm human and make mistakes, please forgive me.


Dear Monika,

I have always been jealous of you. You are the one that is always social and can talk to anyone. I can’t even go up and talk to people. I’d rather stay at home. I’ve always been jealous of your hair. It’s so shiny, straight, always done so cute, and grows so dang fast! I’ve always been jealous of how you dress, do your make up and hair. You are always dolled up and so cute! I can never do that. I dress and look like an old lady. I’ve always been jealous that you got married before me. I want to tell you how sorry I am for the way I treated you on the night you got engaged. I can never tell you to your face, because I’m too ashamed. You burst into my room around midnight that night to tell me you were getting married. I don’t even know if I said congratulations. I turned back and went back to bed. You, Michael, Mom and Dad were all celebrating in the kitchen and laughing and having a good time, while I cried myself to sleep. The next day was Sunday, and I stayed in bed until you all went to church. Then I hurried and got ready and went to church late. I’m never late. I didn’t even sit by you guys. I bawled all through church and cried on Sis. Chesnut’s shoulder. She knew I was hurting. I went home. I regret how I treated you and I’m truly sorry. I wasn't the best maid of honor; you should have chosen someone else. I don’t think I helped with anything other than setting up the reception. I’M SO SORRY. I hope that someday I can say this to you and ask for your forgiveness. I’m still jealous that you are married …but I’m jealous of everyone that is married. :) I’m glad that you are my sister and I will do anything for you!

Love ya,
Michelle

PS that still brought me to tears :(